I havent updated in so long.
oh well. get used to it.

i guess right now, if i want a rainbow, i have to put up with the rain.
i keep making things worse for myself, unintentionally.
i guess i just cant put up with the fact that things are changing.
i dont want to lose people. its what im scared of.
i liked my life a few weeks ago, when i was happy and not worried about anything.
i had everything i needed.

but im still young. why am i giving a shit.
i should just be living my life and not caring what other people think/do.
it's up to them. if they have a problem, whatever. it's their problem. not mine.
all i do is try to be the best person i can, and i just get it thrown back in my face half of the time.
well enough is enough. im thinking of me and my own feelings now.
screw. you. all.